Where has the time gone?

It's almost February!! I feel like it was seriously yesterday that I was starting my senior year and now it's going to be ending soon. Recently I have been getting all of the classic questions (which if you graduated/are graduating soon you know what I'm talking about) such as, "what are you planning to do with your degree?" or "what job do you have?" and the look on everyone's faces when I give them my "I have no idea!" answer is hilarious and wonderful all at the same time.

I have recently realized however, that I am totally at peace with not knowing my future. I'm ready for a change and I cannot wait to see where The Lord shoots me to on the next phase of life. Then for a second there I was a little worried that I wasn't worried. Caught up in the cycle of freak out if you will. (Gilmore Girls reference anyone?)

Then I went to this "Life After College" bible study and we talked about a few verses that I wanted to get down.

"So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore for not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
                                                                                               -Matthew 6:31-34

I love it when I'm having a little worried moment and then God just gives me a little slap in the face like "hey listen up! None of that." It's wonderful.

"Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires." -Romans 8:5

And this verse was another whoa thanks for the slap moment because I know my thoughts are not always with the Spirit. Good stuff.

"But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things." -Philippians 3:7-8

This is what I want my life to reflect. For everything else to be loss compared to knowing Him more. That is my prayer of the semester.

These verses are such truth that God knew I needed to hear. Yes I do have peace about the future but that is only because I know who holds it. I know He has placed me here for a purpose and is getting me ready to go. Wherever that may be. My bible study leader said something that was so interesting to me. He said, "Each of us are like an arrow. We are all sharpening each other until God sees that He has made us ready and then he shoots us off to another place where we can sharpen others." I thought that was so true and so awesome!

It was so cool to be able to go to the bible study and hear that pretty much everyone is in the same boat as me! We're all in the unknown right now; the future is so up in the air it's a hot air balloon. Could not be more up in the air. The best part was that everyone was excited! We all can't wait to see what God has in store for our futures!

Anyway those are my thoughts for the day. Thanks to my coffee at 12am I am wide awake at 4/almost 5am. Good times were had by all.

I'm saved by His amazing grace.

I've been thinking a lot about starting a blog lately. Somewhere to put words that I can look back on and that maybe people can read if they wish to do so. As I started so called blog it asked for a name and I said "umm I don't know I've never had a blog before."

I've been thinking though, What do I want my blog to be called? What do I want it to be about? Well it will pretty much be about me, my life, what God is teaching me, the future(who knows what that even is), and other cool shenanigans that happen to go down. I mean it's second semester of senior year, something is bound to happen right?

So I kept thinking about the title and I've been thinking a lot about grace lately. How awesome it is, how undeserving I am of it, and how still even in the midst of the chaos and my frustration God gives it to me.

"For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God not by works, so that no one can boast." -Ephesians 2:8-9

I've been struggling lately with giving grace to others as well as myself sometimes. I want things done a certain way and I want to have control of a lot of things and when that doesn't happen I get frustrated. Then God gives me a nice little wake up call and shows me that He gives me grace so who am I not to give others grace? I have no right to withhold that. God loves me so much that He freely gives me grace everyday. I get to wake up (Lord willing of course) knowing that I am saved by God's grace which is such an amazing thing.

So I'm just learning things and being taught about grace which I thought I knew about but I've learned that God likes to teach us things over and over because we have those human brains that tend to forget things. (guilty. right here.)

I'm saved by grace and I get to praise God for it everyday.

So this blog experiment is a way to keep God in the center of my life by writing down everything that He is teaching me. Yay blogs!